Internal battles
A Turtle swimming in murky waters is exactly how having adult onset diabetes can feel like. Some days you want to drown yourself and other days you are just looking for a place to land and let the water run around you. I stick my neck out, not unlike the turtle and the results i get are about the same. Slow progress in a hastening world. I can see it all passing around me and wonder, "how do i get off this log?" "Do I really need to be here?". It is a phenomenon beyond my understanding. To be a diabetic is devastating. It uproots your entire being. EVERYTHING and I mean EVERYTHING relies on how you treat you body. Every organ is affected. I feel like I'm never going to be able to enjoy life again. I can't go places my friends go, i can't drink like i used to and even my diet - that I thought it was healthy - to find out it isn't and needs to change. Maybe I will lose the weight now. That would be nice. I am over here having a pity party, ignor